As I said yesterday, I’ve started having sleeping problems again. If you remember my earlier blog posts, it has been something of a problem before, mostly because I do tend to think a lot about things, probably overthink most of the time, in the dark before sleeping. This is quite a problem because I also tend to have bad feelings whenever I do something that, while totally justified, might make upset some friend of mine, like I did in the past days.
One thing that I start to have clear now is that caffeine is just one part of the issue, it makes my head work again as it did before I stopped drinking coke, which is something that after the hospital I missed a lot. But then it’s my mind that keeps me away because of the things it thinks of: stuff I have to do for work, what I want to do with my life, and so on.
So the only thing I can do to start sleeping decently is to find a way to relax so that I’ll stop thinking about these things when there is no need for me to. I should also stop caring this much for quite a few things I can’t do anything about, like politics and environment. Sure I won’t start ignoring the related issues, but I’ll have to let it go so that I won’t start not sleeping because of those things. Not like that happens a lot but it’s a good example of stuff I care way too much for my health not to get a hit.
I already got a decent way to relax, the PlayStation 3. The only problem is that I’ve been waiting in the last three weeks for the new games I ordered from Amazon to arrive. They arrived Friday, but then there has been a few happening with a friend of mine that upset me to the point that caused my sleep deprivation yesterday.
I suppose I should really convince myself to play more when I have nothing better to do, rather than writing tools to analyse ELF files (which by the way tend to be useful only for xine-lib and little else) and run it over all the free software I contribute to in some way.
Talking about PlayStation 3, I think we should create a group of developers playing, and get one good networked game to play 😉 Myself I just need to find a decent small table to put in my room and I’ll be trying keyboard and mouse to see if I can play UT3 on it… waiting for C&C RA2.
To sleep well the key is mostly the regularity: same time all days. Yeah, sometimes I find myself, too, thinking over and over again about something and not falling asleep. When it happen, i just try to avoid thinking, or… I read some maths :DWell, I’m sorry but I’m a Wii-user 😛 and I don’t play with it often… But I relax often with WC3/TFT (C&C/RA2 (che adoro!!) seems to run badly on Linux, with Wine. I’d like to be contraddicted). Since it seems you like strategy games, call me if you play online, sometime )Good luck with the sleep, and everything.
Get a GTA IV, heard it rox 🙂 Well, San Andreas did for sure. I wish I had a PS3/Xbox now… or not, no time for games 🙁
my way to sleep well is to go to bed tired. bicycle works like a charm.
Hi Diego, first of all: I really appreciate all the work you’re doing for the open source community. I share some of your points of view about doing things right and not just done any way. I’m a perfectionist, which is a pain and a time waste a lot of times. So I understand and admire your posts here.Now regarding this post: I don’t know if you’ve ever heard about ‘living the moment’, but I’ll recommend you something that will surely be helpful to you, if you practice it. It’s a book called “The power of now”, written by Eckhart Tolle.But don’t just believe, read it and try it.