I wrote briefly before about my headache problems. I have to take an MRI soon, the neurologist was a bit worried about my past problem with the pancreas and the fact that the cause of that was never found. On the other hand, I started to think about which could possibly cause my headaches that wasn’t caused by a vascular (or worse) problem.

One thing I start to ponder on is caffeine. I used to drink a lot of Coca-Cola. Too much. Way too much for a sane person. I tried more than once to give up on it, with no results, until I was forced in the hospital. The result is that I’m no more addicted to Coca-Cola, even though I have to avoid it at all costs, as I know I’d probably just fall for it again.

Since I came out of the hospital, I was able to take at least a bit of caffeine through Chinotto but I don’t like its taste too much so I can’t exceed on it. I avoided coffee because I didn’t like the one that my mother brewed in her moka (a typical Italian coffee); I like Espresso, but I don’t usually go around in Bar to take one.

Last week I decided to finally buy myself an Espresso machine; my mother does not like it and she gave the one we used to have to my sister. I decided for one that could also grind the coffee grains on the fly, as they do taste better. Unfortunately, the grinder broke already after not even a full week! I now have to take the machine to be repaired, quite annoying!

On the other hand, this half week with three coffee cups a days felt way better, I was able to write code much faster, I was able to cleanup my room, I was able to go through stuff in our garage so that it could be emptied. What a life again!

After yesterday’s breakage of the machine, I started feeling down again, caffeine withdrawal without a doubt. It’s a shame. I sincerely hoped to have passed this phase, but it might just be that my body is way too used to caffeine to give up on it.

Luckily, it seems like I don’t dislike so much all the Moka-brewed coffee, just the flavour my mother uses. I tried using the coffee I bought for the Espresso in the Moka, and it tastes quite better. I still prefer Espresso so as soon as my machine will be repaired I’ll use that again, but at least I have something to drink until that is done.

Monday (please remember I’m writing this on Saturday night!) I’ll have to see my doctor, I’ll probably ask him if it’s fine for me to continue taking caffeine on the long run. Sincerely, I much prefer my own self on caffeine than not. I’m quite a shitty coder without caffeine, it takes too long for me to write even relatively simple code.

At least this I remember the doctors in the hospital telling me I could continue drinking, explicitly. I had to reduce the milk, especially avoiding the 3% milk, but I can still have coffee. Which is good. Barley’s “coffee” I just can’t stand. I tried it in the hospital and it tasted foul, even the doctors agreed on that (which is why I remember they telling me I could have coffee!).

Anyway, if I can get my caffeine intake through coffee now, you might have found your old Flameeyes back! 🙂